Hello Tree. Thank you my friend for reading and responding. You words mean so much. Yes, you are right about the layers…they built up since she and I were children. There is so much pain mixed into the love yet the reasons for the pain are so… so…minuscule. That still doesn’t matter in the whole picture. So the default position after many attempts to move beyond: blank.

Funny thing though, after all this time, since I am such a “fixer”, I will still try to get to a different and better state with her.

🥰🌻