Absolutely, you are not alone. This all sucks and is beyond freaky.
At our home, we are both over-the-top careful. I am not worse than my guy. We are equal about all we chose to do to avoid Covid. None of our friends, none of them, do half of what we do but think they do 98%. Christmas gatherings etc were had by all.
No, we did not.
What we do is super hard, limiting and solitary, but it is what we feel works for us. Lately we have publicly ( on zoom etc) started to make fun of ourselves. Telling stories of our over-over doing. It has helped us cope (the power of laughter, especially at ourselves)although for our listeners, it just confirms that they think we are nuts.
So what, we say.
I know you are not a hugger. You said so. But I am sending you one anyways.